a good day

today just
smells
like a
good day.

a notion

nope.

not that kind of notion.

this one...

no·tion

  [noh-shuhn]  Show IPA

noun

1.

a general understanding; vague or imperfect conception or idea of something: a notion of how something should be done.

2.

an opinion, view, or belief: That's his notion, not mine.

3.

conception or idea: his notion of democracy.

4.

a fanciful or foolish idea; whim: She had a notion to swim in the winter.

i often get the notion

that i know 

what's best.

this has often got me 

into trouble

with trying 

to control situations -

and dare i say it? -

manipulate.

and this in turn

sets me up 

for disappointment 

when things don't go

'my way'.

i am trying

to learn

to let go.

learning that

i really don't know 

what is best.

and i am trying 

to learn

to hand it all over 

to the One 

that does.

without trying to

snatch it right back 

out of His hands.

parenting young adults 

is more difficult

than i imagined -

and MY kids are 

super awesome!

i really need

to know when to speak -

and when to 

keep my mouth 

completely shut.

i need 

to let them go

so they can

make decisions -

and mistakes,

without my influence meddling.

i also 

need to

get.my.own.life.

these are my thoughts 

for the day.

a direction

if you do not

change direction,

you may end up

where you are heading.

lao tzu

a little encouragement

these are letters
to my girl.
she has needed some
encouragement lately.

a sloth

well, it is official.
i am lazy.
over the holidays
i didn't take out the camera
at all!
not one photo.
i mostly just acted like a sloth.
then,
hello new year -
and the kids
were still home -
all week.
so,
no getting back into a routine.
well this week -
i am hoping -
to get back on track.
so far
it is not working well for me.
there are so many things
i should be doing.
i hate that word.

i am promising myself

to be back soon -

to show off some of my creations.

i am aiming to make everyday.

good luck to me

a last minute

i'm thinking -
that
the last week of november
is not a good time
to be looking through
knitting and crochet project books -
to get ideas for gifts to make.

but, typically -
last minute
is how i roll.

a moment

time usually gets the best of me.
i am
a planner,
a controller,
a multitasker,
i make lists.
when i am in the middle of something -
i'm thinking and planning what is next.
i doesn't make for a good listener.
and somehow i miss out on the process.
i am learning in yoga  -
to be present.
to acknowledge thoughts
as them come -
and then
send them on their way.
practicing that in everyday life
is a challenge.
the last couple of days
i've really tried
to just be where i am
and do what i'm doing.
if a 'what next' thought
pops into my head -
i don't add it to the list.
i am doing one thing at a time -
and when that task is complete -
i do the next thing
that pops into my brain.
i am accomplishing just as much -
and so far i haven't forgotten anything urgent.
i don't know if it is feasible
to do this every minute of the day -
because there are
appointments and commitments
that can't be put aside,
but i am liking being in the moment for now.

a habit

sometimes
things just seem to come together.
a while back,
i was contemplating some things.
and probably
beating myself up a little bit.
about some of my lifestyle choices,
and some of the bad habits
that go along with them.
then,
i decided,
to stop feeling badly about them -
and start changing them.
later that week i was reading
oswald chambers -
'my utmost for His highest' -
and there was a whole section
about forming habits.
THEN, i became aware of the book
'the 7 habits of highly effective people' -
which i love, love, love - by the way.
it was clear -
i need to make some changes
so i started with a few small things -
like recycling more,
and using my reusable bags at the grocery store,
turning out lights when i leave a room,
making my bed everyday,
and taking really good care of my houseplants.
these are all things that i have really slacked on in the past,
but felt like they needed change.
so i made a conscious effort to do these things well,
and make some new good habits.
i know that soon i won't even be aware of them.
and i am being rewarded well already.

some of my plants are blooming

 

there are some bigger habits
that i know need to be
added to the list.
very soon.

a balance

steady

stable

calm

equal

level

poise

attune

harmonize

balance