a notion

nope.

not that kind of notion.

this one...

no·tion

  [noh-shuhn]  Show IPA

noun

1.

a general understanding; vague or imperfect conception or idea of something: a notion of how something should be done.

2.

an opinion, view, or belief: That's his notion, not mine.

3.

conception or idea: his notion of democracy.

4.

a fanciful or foolish idea; whim: She had a notion to swim in the winter.

i often get the notion

that i know 

what's best.

this has often got me 

into trouble

with trying 

to control situations -

and dare i say it? -

manipulate.

and this in turn

sets me up 

for disappointment 

when things don't go

'my way'.

i am trying

to learn

to let go.

learning that

i really don't know 

what is best.

and i am trying 

to learn

to hand it all over 

to the One 

that does.

without trying to

snatch it right back 

out of His hands.

parenting young adults 

is more difficult

than i imagined -

and MY kids are 

super awesome!

i really need

to know when to speak -

and when to 

keep my mouth 

completely shut.

i need 

to let them go

so they can

make decisions -

and mistakes,

without my influence meddling.

i also 

need to

get.my.own.life.

these are my thoughts 

for the day.